[Listening: Antennas to Heaven by Godspeed You Black Emperor!]

So… Life has been pretty crazy lately… I’m up to my ears in work (a constant for about a month or two now)… Let me tell you, this is not what I call fun… I did, however, just recently finish my thesis and turn it in… Of course I encountered a little problem… The website that I spent about a month creating for my thesis conveniently disappeared, for no apparent reason… This was a huge problem considering I needed screenshots of it for my entire last section of my thesis… Awesome… I tried to get it back, but no such luck… My life does not seem to run that smoothly… So, I had to do a little improvising… I ended up using an old screenshot (luckily, I had taken one) and just describing the decisions that rose from that point in the process… It’s not exactly what I was hoping for, but it’s something… And, it’s done… All fifty something pages of it… Fini!… Now, I’m just in the process of writing my last paper, which, like all of my other papers this semester, I chose a horrible (aka difficult) topic for and am now hating myself for it… As soon as it’s finished (due tomorrow and conveniently just starting), I will have officially written over one hundred pages this semester… That’s a novel…

Onward…

Other than worrying about school, I’ve pretty much been freaking out about life… Basically because I have no clue what I want to do with it… I just have way way way too many interests, which means that I have way too many choices… This situation is definitely not good for someone who really does not like making decisions… Seriously… I’ve just been trying to weigh the positives and negatives of my choices… For a while there, I had completely written off medical school, but now I’m not sure sure… So basically I’m trying to decide whether to go to medical school and be in college for the rest of my life or to move to New York and just see what happens whether it be advertising, publishing, editing, whatever… It’s an extremely difficult decision because both of them have their ups and their downs… I guess I’m just going to have to figure that out (maybe make a chart or something)… I’m really hoping that once exams are over (wednesday night), I’ll have a little clarity of mind… You know, maybe have an epiphany or something… Fingers crossed…

Freedom is approaching…

like always, we’ll survive… we always do…

p.s. did i mention that i’m really into hearing other people’s advice? my door (email inbox) is always open…

“I went to a party once and there was a palm reader there. When she looked at my hand she just… she froze. And I said to her, ‘I know… I know…’”